new life

by nw, i chose God as my ans in relationship rather than her... its my final n definite decision..coz i bliv if she is for me, God wil redeem it for me... watever it'll be, jus let it b........... admire tis song nw.... " let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be...."

feelings

is depending on feelings a good o bad thing ? 4my own self, i affected lots by wat i felt at tat moment & made decision straight... alwix alwix made wrong decision... it has been a week since i broke up...I'm out of words... i will never think that it could happen in jus 2days...during tat week i still planning wat 2do for our 1st coming anniversary...jus couldnt accept it.. wat a sad case.. v ended d relationship in d wrong way..as our mind were stucked n jus decide according to our feelings, without asking god anything..He is sad bout us.. after losing her,i oli realized tat she is d 1 i want 2walk wit til d end of d earth(seems like some guys like me doesn't know how to appreciate things and only filled with regrets after losing it).. somehw i wanted to tel her tis, but jus afraid tat i may scare her away... jus always pretend im ok..actualy nt... im nt sure hw she feel bout me, she is tat kind of person can recover very fast n wat i understand her is tat after she make up her mind, she wouldnt change her decision, hope i misunderstand her tis... As i surrender totally to God, i pray to Him tat if she is d 1 meant 4me, then let us b , but if she is not meant 4me, then jus help me let go of it....  i trust in Him, he always choose d best way 4me..

today

din really start a blog 4so long n nw i think i should record down wat i experienced so tat i able 2recall back my beauty memory