Confession

jus viewed sherine's friendster's blog... inside mentioned bout d activities cf had.. orang asli mission trip in kemendor, hungry ghost event, daily strungles so on...

it reminds me of 1 thing.... my batch(nw yr 3 sem3)..used to be d most passionate & unity group especialy during y1s2 & y2s1, y2s2....

like kemendor orang asli, b4 v go... v'l ask ppl pray 4us... & v realy pray corporately...

and v also passionate for praise and worship.. exciting every single activities tat do together in CF weekly or outside... 

like NS trip... when tat time v heard of it... v're so excited... wondering hws d ppl thr,hw isit look like... hw 2talk & lead in BM.... nw is like "huh..go again ar... not free la, busy"

interfaculty is worst.....no mr d interest to go 4it....adi focus on wat shouldnt b...

bout mission trip to indonesia... v put God at 1st place... hav very strong faith in Him, beliving Him for mirarcles...

 1 example is tat even 2mr is midterm o assignment due date... for us... nothing is greater than doing work for Christ.. v'l stil come for cg, prepare for mission trip... meeting... fund raising... al sorts of thing... we don afraid at all of d unfinished assignement & preparation for midterm..& keep on praying for god's strength & wisdom...

i jus wanna ask... where are we now?.... i wanna c d gang & d spirit v used to have for God,for bro & sis for non-christian!! d unity..... 

nw d situation is like even few days b4 midterm o assignment.. adi worry... keep on focus on it & somehw loss our truth self for pursuing accomplishment of study & task... God is adi behind of assignment,theses,midterm.... do v stil hav faith in Him belivin tat His mirarcle in our studies,stress,life....

nw is like don even care much of wats going on in cf, in church, in personal interction wit others...

as long as v can skip d duty then v'l try to avoid... 

d heart is no longer thr... wats left is jus d god given ability within us... 

cell group based system in CF is good.. but somehw it cause us loss contact wit other sis & bro in christ... altot thr's combine meeting... but always dissapoint as d openess of members' heart is not thr...oli stick 2its own gang... & jus take it as 1activites.."d word- christian fellowship is adi meaningness"... even during P&W in meeting, v sing bcoz of al ppl sing... 

d heart to sing & praise Him in unity couldnt b found....tend to b shy bcoz no good voice...so on...

Cell group system can oli build relationship among cell group members not bro & sis in other cells  unless v take initiative to care for them... can v name out who is in whose cg.. wat is he o she facing nw... duno at all... tis is also wat i shared wit joel yday...

easter...makes us worry... no commitment.. yes mayb... for our part... try do as little as can... better not involve so much as v'r in d final sem...if nt juniors cant grow & take over... yes is right... but ru stil rmb wat v said when pass d task to junior?

V said v'l guide,lead... not oli task... spiritually leading them to handle things... r v doing wat v promise ??? some yes but some not...

Lord... can i see again mirarcle happen within us? as how U bring us together 2serve U wit al our heart & soul... love 1another, care for each other...& believing Oli U can bring us back to d initial stage... d 1st love v used to hav for U in unity... 

wat i share is out of my heart...