relationship

This morn while in hospital teman dad 4body checkup... i read d book "i kissed dating goodbye"...i jus learned alot frm thr... 

this caught my heart " joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment",  means i realized tat i muz do wats best for others by nvr asking for intimacy if im nt able to meet d commitment level.

Nw i decided no more 'dating' in rest of life... 

D reasons y i stop dating is not tat i donwan get married, or donwan enjoy romance, is because i realized i ned wait on romance until i can match my pursuit of intimacy with my pursuit of commitment... (means don focus on short term desires)

in other word... equation : when "commitment level= intimacy level, thus = can hav romance" then oli a relationship can be long lasting...

i jus wan d best 4both...

nw stil hav alot mr things about truth love haven been discovered yet... nw oli reach chap 3 of "i kissed dating goodbye..." hehehe... mr to go!!! 

so nw i really give a goodbye kissed to dating... c ya..

 

i'LL CUT MY HAIR SOON..... tis is d desire frm my gang to c me in short hair... bcoz i also ned short hair when interview!!!!

I love U Lord.... whenever i go, i saw people praising U, d same God... Im so touched by tat

Jus wanna make a prayer......... Lord bcoz i bliv in power of prayer, bcoz prayer U pull me out frm darkness....

Lord, I pray O Lord tat help me to be a Firm...Strong.... & a Decisive person!!! my God, never let me to hav a chance to regret in life....

Lord, help me to grow in U, tats my desire Lord.. i really want Lord!!! Let nothing can stop me frm Growing in U... Lord... never let me 2b a selfish, small gas person Lord!!!

Lord.. I pray Lord that as I set priority in life... Pray tat u sustain me frm tat!!

Frm nw on, i put God as 1st... then comes 2family, 3rd chai hong(she is like my mom)... then me & others..

Even if im tired til cant open my eyes, I stil wil cont praying... 

Lord, as i told U d priority i set, pray tat Lord U hold me strong in Ur arms... As CF easter is coming, i know people will seek my help especially in deco,..."chai said : if u'r an empowering leader & nt powerful leader, then u'll b a very effective leader" Means empower people for task 2let them learn, nt depend on me coz im good in tat area!!

Lord... as u mention Love in Bible, Lord... i pray O Lord tat U prepare me to be a lovable person like hw U sent Ur son 2die 4us... Let me learn & apply it into Mylife... Ur will is my will Lord!!!

Lord, i ready to b changed by U!!! I wan to let people c tat KahFai is transformed & b a better person in Christ...I'l make Jesus famous to the people around me!!!

U'r d 1 saved me frm death... if nt i cant even hav my eyes opened nw... thank you God!!

In everything i pray in Jesus name, Amen!!

dance in Northingham Uni

2day learned dance... wit nigerian... on d way thr... thr'r 4of us in d car... me, suk theng, lin xiang, & wendy.... i was tired & then jus slept in car...tot stil long way 2go, mana tau when i almost fall asleep that time.... wendy shouted " Apek... sudah sampai lo!!! " ... i straight away terkejut & woke.... 

then when i practise til tired then i sat aside n close my eyes resting......... & suddenly i heard a " chik chak sound" terkejut me again.... is wendy kena me again.. she took my pic... aiyo... ni budak suka kacau la!!

northingham has good facilities & nice campus... v played pool while d dance session begins... d dancing room really great la, is exactly d same as d dance room as v saw in movies... 

bout d dance... is quite amazing tat i saw them dance... as d moves are good, chai hong told me tat they nt good in dance somemr...seems like is not d truth...i susah 2catch up also, thr's a move tat requires us 2 bend our upper body behind, like falling to d back... is d hardest among all, i practise tat move til my legs no energy 2even stand... al of them keep on coming out wit new ideas... is jus so great!!

N 2mr sure my leg gao gao pain d when walk....

Sat

i really enjoy sat as v hav JAMMING Session, really thx Jasmine 4tat! D 1 come out with ideas... at 1st i jus tot nothing special, but d more i get into it, d more  felt.. wow!! tis is wat i want....!! Learning piano is really fantastic 2me... cant imagine i would able 2hav a chance 2learn it without spending a single cent... V planning 2 lead worship on 1 of d sat service b4 graduate...... 

d other thing i enjoy d most is having makan session at kajang after practise... really enjoyin n even d bus waiting process.... bdw, 2day really gao gao la in d bus... 1st bus came, very pack inside, so i masuk with ah lek(my huzmate) 1st... then d rest wil follow suktheng, mana tau when both of us got down frm d bus... saw sherine n al coming down frm d bus behind at same time, then i looked into d 2nd bus.... """sikit orang saja inside"""...lol... kena tipu d... me n ah lek pack inside d 1st bus like sardin fish oli...

suddenly nw feel kepala pening, guess is d time 2sleep, coz yday sleept oli 2hours then cant sleep d...

piano lesson

2days piano lession not simple also, learned fingering, chords..... rest cant remember d... a super long lesson.... bt hav fun of it... janice d 1 taught me... n wei qi d 1 bside kacau... hahha, bt wei qi can catch up things very fast... she listened then can play a song 2gether with janice...Guess she learned b4 1... yet she say duno hw 2play! janice said she long time din play, bt c d way she play, macam sangat pro.. 

 their laughters spread throughout d room.. i also cant control them... well this is my very 1st time learn piano in life(real piano)... alot of excitment yet fingers stretch alot... wanted to kill 3 birds with 1 stone one, but ler... stil ned mr time to learn... as chords n fingering n reading notes learned at same time... bt need mr time 2digest... hehehee.. my target can be acheived soon nt far frm nw... thx janice 4willingness 2 teach.

So

Its a great suprise to all my fren n her fren... tat v broke up... well... i praise U, i remember i watched facing d giant show in broga planing camp... it taught me "we win.. we praise U, we lose... we praise U".... applied into my life!! always have a heart of thanksgiving... discussion finally comes to a decision 2day,is officially single to us..... Amen!!! i respct Ur & her decision.... 

meanwhile i would learn about relationship , growth in Him tremendously as my plan since last sem b4 graduate... wow...i can c tat i really grow alot.. hahah.. is talking bout spiritual growth.... nw i hav 1 mr sis in life ler...i know she cares bout me after tis incident.... hehehe... don worry ya, God is always thr 4us when we seek Him, honestly... He is healing me, so u nw hav 1mr bro also... jusnw chai asked me pay her back 5roses...1 month 1 rose..haha.. borrow frm her long ago 2learn hw 2make it...d 5months.... paiseh la.... 

so ar...i'b responsible for wat i done...cont to be man of God..!!! 

future partner

nw i started to pray for d coming relationship... hee.. i duno who she'll b.. im know God'll choose d best 4me as He had promised in Jeremiah 29:11... bt jus wanna

- pray tat Lord.. tis wil b a 3ways relationships, U & me & her... tat my main objective 4tis relationship is to grow together in U... whenever v hav joy, v'll  celebrate 2gether wit u... whenever v hav sadness,  v'll jus come to U & Lord i know tat u'll help us hold on tight on U & keep us lovable to 1 another.

- pray tat Lord help me to b a 100% good boyfriend and even spouse to her, i'l keep all my heart jus 4her... 

-I'l keep d purity of 1 another... Lord i pray tat U give us strength & wisdom to fulfill tis request.. as nw i know wat truth love is al about thx be 2 God... Because of Love... i'l protect & keep 1 another's purity til d very end..

-Lord i pray tat i'll b the lover U wan me to be for her... not b the lover she wants me to be for her... same way goes to her... 

there r some criteria 4d gf i'm looking 4...(no order in sequence)

1st: like to smile

2nd: hav good heart

3rd: love God 1st, then comes to family... then me& frens

4th: a faithful 1

5th: nt a person tat loves money

6th: share each others' burden

& others....

To me, physical beauty is nt tat important as it'll fade away a day... cause i bliv when i love her, then she'll b d prettiest person to me...

As Lord with Ur help... i bliv tat d coming relationship wil b a long-lasting 1 as u're d sustainer 4us... i praise U Jesus.