appreciation

would like 2 introduce a laddy, she is described as rainbow, i guess whoever close with her o UTAR students would know tat... she is chai hong... her favourite word "SEeee..RioUsssss".. as i like to imitate her way of pronouncing tis word... very funny...she look abit old, bt yet she is young at heart!! 2day jus had a 2hour bible studies session with her... bt v din touch d notes at all, v jus talked throughout entire session as she teaching me n showing me hw to deal with probs.... 

She encouraged me tremendously... Whenever i faced prob, she is d 1 always help me out... without her, i definetely would nt b able to grow spiritually so much n to be a mature person like nw...n even unable to discover tat God has planted so much gifts within me... in my heart i said, if she is in any troubles, i'll b d 2nd person b thr 4her, as 1st must b God...

When i was young, i had an aunty tat look after me til i was in secondary.. bt im vry sad tat i witnessed her died in suffering... bcoz of health illness... i jus unable to do anything 4her... i was crying in heart n thinking, if she has a chance to know Jesus, then she would b saved...she cares 4 me n my sis even mr than my mom does.... i was vry regret...tat she hav no chance to know Christ.. She is d 1st person i had deep love with... she is like my 2nd mom..d kindness n love  she demonstated in my life would never be forgotton.. i nw can imagine her everlasting smile in my mind.. so comfortable...i love u 程要妹姑姐

And nw, i found my 3rd mom... Chai Hong.... she is jus so good nt oli to me, as well as other students she knows.... today she taught me to set priority in life... so i listened to her, she told me tat nw V(mainly utarians) r her 1st priority.. I bliv tat the care n love v experienced frm her will be kept deep inside our hearts forever... i respect n care 4her... when my family faced prob, i always seek her advice... i admit tat 'me-kahfai' is nt strong spiritually, she is d 1 always give me encouragements n advice.. she helped me draw myself closer to God.. as i found bck wat i lost thru God & her help.... She helped me to be a better person in life.. im nw hav alot mr confidence also ned to thank her

Thx God for bringing Chai Hong into our midst...        "SEeee..RioUsssss"-frm chai

Publish Post

My Life

My Life.... in my life, i had toooootoooooo many ups & downs d,even my laptop's name called "M-Life"too, bt it helped me gain extra experiences n lessons some ppl may nt able to have it, like stealing frm family, relatives, neighbours, frens, shops... gangsterism, smoking, fighting, almost die(few times) n many mr... tis mainly happened in childhood n secondary schoold time......

Altot i may looked small in ppl eyes, as im phisically small... yes... i mind it alot last time b4 i know Christ.... bt 4 nw... i proud 2b myself.... 'kahfai in God's given identity'... d smaller im, tat shows d bigger of our God.... i wan to be used almightly by Him... tats y nw i'm learning guitar, piano!!! and even dance together.. it may b tiring ofcoz... bt i jus feel good to learn... bcoz its all my passion too... so i feel its worth 2sacrifice

Altot i always talk crabs... is nt tat i want 2crab, is my nature n gift tat i want make ppl happy thru tis way... thx God tat tis gift brought alot of laughters into many ppl's life n even into mylife.. is ok some ppl may nt feel comfortable wit it, because i cant please all ppl in d world.... 

Thus, i gt famous with d name "lame king', or another word is 'very Fei'... i gt all kinds of funny name ppl created 4me... if they feel nice to call it then jus let it b... n bcoz of tis gift, im able to break d wall in ppl's heart.....Thx God tat then it opens up their heart n sometimes they like to share their personal probs n things wit me... mainly girls... sometimes im sorry tat i may not b able to help them, bt im happy to b jus a listener... i guess mainly i looked like a girl at 1st place, as ppl commented ... also i grew up wit 2 sis.. v always share things wit each other, that's y i quite easily get along wit female... 

As for d road infront... i duno hw it would b....... please show me... OUR LORD, JESUS!!

challenge

2day... our thesis group changed supervisor.... as previous supervisor went 2teach in kampar utar, n he's a very good supervisor as he showed us d way to have our article published in magazine... he is a christian.. n he did make a promise tat he is willing to come bck n guide us even he teaches far far away... yet at d end also he left...n we done our chap 2 n waitin 4him to come n check.. v send him email... no response, then v sms n call him... also no reply....

Now changed 2a new malay supervisor tat doesnt know anyting bout us... she has no much experience n she is new in UTAR... she even duno hw 2 insert a pendrive into a comp n asked 4our help. d questions raised up in discussion r frm us... nt frm her, like v guiding her hw 2do... tis is jus 1of d prob.... as our thesis is focusing on secondary teachers, n v ned to deliver d questionnaires to the secondary teachers, but jus found out tat tis wed onwards all secondary school having holiday til nxt yr.......... what can v do???

 i cant complain nor yield... thx god that a fren of mine contacted a teacher n he's willing 2 help us ans d questinnaires.... bt somehw thr is no point... as 1st, our hypotheses are nt checked by supervisor, when 1 hypotheses has prob, d entire questionnaire bcomes rubbish... 2nd, thr is meaningless 2get oli response frm 1 school... the demand is tat at least 4 or mr school's teachers ans the questionnaires.... 

2mr noon thrs an easter committee meeting, bt i cant attend as i ned go 2shah alam, d seconary school 2 distribute questionaire at 3pm as 2mr is d oli chance to distribute as after 2mr... all school are having holidays... at same time v will have a meeting with supervisor at 2pm, bt d thing is she always late... hw can v reach shah alam by 3pm as d meeting last at least 30mns somemr she likes to talk alot.... even v get 2reach d school also no point, 1 school's response is nt enough at all.... can i shout all stress out?

thx

thx for d care frm my huzmate...whenever they had programs,like 2day... they went 2 The Mines kai kai... n they nvr left me bhind... ask me go along, bt i vry busy.. & tired... so cant join them... even nw during dinner time, they also ajak me out 2gether, said ' without u is nt beautiful d'  in cantonese... yet, i no time even 2eat... jus woke up as i had headache jusnw...later i guess d pain wil come bck as will d theses discussion wil end probably at 4am... nw need to prepare 4presentation,ned 2 find alot of evidence to support my points... 'nvr give up' is always my axiom

finally

... nw at 1.12am of mon, me at kl home n finally done my presentation slide, altot it jus a  slide 4tues presentation, but tis time is differ, as tis time is among d hardest presentations i ever going 2face... very challenging, adi prepare my heart 2b questioned by tutor( she jus bck frm hongkong n was a senior executive in corporate world).. she has high demand n expectation on us, im worry coz d points i got are mostly frm my own knowledge, if she asks me to prove it.. i unable to do it 4her.... i need God's strength n wisdom, as i bliv tat even i know nothing bout certain area, but He who gave me wisdom able to bring me out frm tough situation.. its a truth, i experienced it alot..Later need wake at 6.30am as teman my dad 2hospital for body checkup, then ned rush back 2sglong(UTAR) 2attend class,combine slide n practise grp presentation, then frm 8.30pm til 11pm i have a cell group 2attend.. after tat at 11.30pm i have a thesis discussion n probably doing it til nxt morn... N tues morn 7am, thrs a prayer meeting i need to attend... after tat class starts at 9.30 am til 12.30pm,presentation is in btw tat time, wil try my very best tis time...  at night has dance practise also...is a very busy n tight schedule n tiring day... i seek U oh Father n praise U.

wat i'd learned

In any relationship (between spouses, between parents and children, between siblings, between relatives, between friends, between bosses and employees, between one another, etc) it is human to blame the other person for causing the misunderstanding or hurt. We have learnt from very young to point the fault away from us. We are so incredibly trained to notice what’s wrong in any given relationship. And this only makes the matter worse.

Thus, if we still want to maintain a talking and growing relationship, we have to find some guidelines to help us cure our tendencies to blame.
        We know that what Mother Teresa has said is true for any relationship:
        “We know that if we really want to love we must learn how to forgive. (“A Gift for God”, 42)

Thus, in any conflicting relationship, our anger and resentment must ultimately give way to grief and sadness. This means we are saying, “I lost,” because that is the truth. We may have lost a battle for him to change, or to make him see things our way, or to get him to understand just how wrong he was. We have to stop fighting battles that are not worth winning, or not possible to win. That is what God does every day. He lets go and feels sad about how we choose to conduct our lives. When God forgives, He chooses what we human beings would term “lost.” How so? Because soon after we would repeat the same sins and He still forgives us when we say, “I am sorry.” But God does not consider it a lost. Why? Because He loves us so much that He wants our relationship with Him to continue growing in love.

And when God forgives He does not keep count. He does not keep a record of our sins. He chooses not to remember our sins. He lets us start afresh. God says, “I will forgive their sins and will no longer remember their wrongs.” (Hebrews 8:12 TEV) So He forgives us endlessly.

Avoid these blaming in a dating relationship, or it'll just spoil your relationship ...
        “Why do you always. . .”
        “Why don’t you ever ...”
        “I can’t believe you’ve done it again.”
        “I don’t deserve this kind of treatment.”
        “This is your fault.”
        “Who do you think you are?”
        “You’re so. . .”
        “After all I’ve done for you. . .”

Very useful as  i learned alot from it...thx God

a complete kahfai

Here im, i was lost once upon a time, nw is the time to b ho m i in God's given identity... not longing so much compare to d past, can say expectation bcome lesser n lesser...good rite! nw learning my favourite instrument tat i wanted to learn eversince i was young... tat's keyboard@piano.. nxt week my cf fren is willing to teach me... so excited!! at same time catching up with drums n guitar..little by little..hope i am able to catch d lesson.. to b a freestyle musician, al d while im hoping 2b 1.. as well as an artistic n creative guy to discover mr n mr ideas ...n i bliv tat d time wil come... let me shine 4 U.. n just for U.