woke up tis morn & vomitted, duno y?

 throat nw getting even mr painful after taking medic...no cure

cooking 2day...bt no liu..plain, good too coz sore throat

Objective..

wanna finish "i kiss dating goodbye" this book b4 school open nxt year... to discover mr bout relationship

Goodbye fren

Nicky left soon... has been seeing him every sat 4 almost 2years bt nw he's going to left!!.. will miss him..  jusnw had a wonderful dinner at sungai chua, tot nicky would join us, mana tahu he din, abit dissapointed la..somehw also sense chai is not in good mood.. something in her heart make her unhappy... despite all else, i had a great dinner... 

Remembered 1 thing... jusnw dinner tat time... somehw sherine gave me some meat balls coz she cant finish her food...erm erm... then i started ate it... suddenly...Suupp!!! i felt something stuck in my teeth... i keep on trying to take it out.. bt tak jadi... At d end after makan, finally i use al my strength & effort... dig it out... "lol, it is a fish bone"... i was asking sherine.." is it fish ball"... she said "is meat ball"... hw can it b??? inside meat ball gt fish bone!!!... lolx... somemr d 1st meat ball i ate d kena... bt sherine said she ate 2 also nothing happen... wat a joke of d day!

Anyway, may God b with Nicky in every moment in his life... v'l keep u in prayer, my bro!

25 dec (Christmas)

morn in church.. worshiping 1 nice song.. d chorus "And His Kingdom's reign, His Kingdom's rule"...i like tis song.. any1 can tell me d title of this song??

after tat went chai hong brought me & sherine pergi McD(good environment, good food) near Balakong, eat prosperity burger set, which sherine was craving on.... hahha, funny thing is tat morn i told myself not to eat any fried o spicy food coz i hav sore throat... at d end i eat McD,haha... Praise God is tat after eat, i felt my throat better, is cured!!! Praise God..

Also wanna thx chai hong 4d treat, is expensive duh!!!.. she not working somemr!

Then v chat about 3hours, d topic mainly bout carrer... then chai interview sherine bout wat she's looking forward & y take up FE course & all... hahhah, a funny interview process..

Have a great time thr...

At night, went Logo's church 4its christmas production, d skit was quite good as well as d dance altot thr r problems occur in btw.... & i heard tis song。。。

 i like it... title = "全新的你"

你說陰天代表你的心情
雨天更是你對生命的反應
你說每天生活一樣平靜
對於未來沒有一點信心

親愛朋友 你是否曾經
曾經觀看滿天星星
期望有人能夠了解你心
能夠愛你賜你力量更新

耶穌能夠叫你一切都更新
耶穌能夠體會你的心情
耶穌能夠改變你的曾經
耶穌愛你 耶穌疼你
耶穌能造一個全新的你

after tat yancha lol.. met graduated senior frm cf too! good.

Christmas Eve

altot christmas d bcame belated.. jus wanna share sumtin bout it...

during tat night..me,joel & wei qi went RLC(runewal luteran church) 4its christmas production in PJ.

D choir team performances was good... especialy comes to d time 1 girl singing solo & d choir team sing along.. sounds so nice!

1good news is tat Wei Qi accepted Christ during service... she said whatever d pastor preached is the ans she wanted to find for her quest!!.. 

she accpeted Christ in RLC in 24 Dec 2008... Bck to 3yrs bck... in 24 Dec 2005...   im accepted Christ in RLC too... tat time i hav some prob(4get wat prob), then pastor said Jesus can help u... then i jus went out to b prayed 4...(bdw, i duno i bcame a christian after all..hahah... But im glad 2b a Christian!!)

Also met some old frirends thr... even d van uncle... grace's sis & d gang

somehow joel called his dad to pick us up at 11pm, & he asked us to wait outside... but wait til 11.20pm also no news(d distance frm joel's place to RLC is bout 5-10mins).. then joel called his dad... d aunty picked up d call, said d father din bring hp out...

ok.. then v jalan keluar..& terserempak joel's dad, he's walking towards us.. i asked "uncle, ru waited 4 long?" he replied : "Jus driving d car around for 5-6 times"... OhNo!!... Actualy i ned to to go Putra LRT(Taman Jaya station), but d 11.30pm tat time... i kept on praying tat God let me able to get on d last train... Thx God, miracle happen!.. i gt it on d train!!! if not, i ned overnight at train station

Tat time i had rm8.50 in my pocket.. when i gt d train ticket.. i remember very clearly i put it into my pocket & told myself "nvr loss it"

Mana tahu when reach d destination, i cant find my ticket & paying rm7.50 as reimbursement...

i ned to take another train which is Star LRT frm masjid jamek to hang tuah(rm 1.20)... no money lol... cant take lrt d.... called my sis, she say is out, thx God tat dad has his car wit him.. he took me up then... if not i ned jalan balik d.. well, mistakes wont repeat!

tat time bout 12am(jus reach 25 dec).. receive an extremely unexpected msg frm a person.. "Justin Tan!!" he wished us merry christmas.. wow!! cant bliv he would send as he's nt d type would send greeting to ppl 1... haha, he has changed alot!

Birthday!!

Thr's a count down clock on my page(previously 1)... 1of d reasons is counting down 4christmas eve... d other reason is bcoz counting down 4my own birthday!!! 

My dream really came truth... " 1st time i have friends celebrated birthday 4me & sing happie birthday songs lol... " sounds weird but is d fact...Really thx alot...

Actualy tis blog is related 2d previous 1... as i mentioned i bcame d role model to sukteng(correct spelling rite) 2 find a suitable pants in jusco 4her friend as Christmas gift... mana tahu!!! tat was actually 4me!!... tipu me go hr & thr to test pants lolx... "sukteng said... its a old trick... but to me is new! as in i dun realy hav frens did tat to me b4" jus cant bliv d 1 so called 99% cannot b trusted punya person nw kena tipu balik... felt like i was in april fool.... But i really like d pants & d attached birthday card..is wonderful!

Somemr d yamcha session... suddenly joel asked me out yancha... ok, is normal to me coz v always yancha... then saw janice & wei qi came too... stil ok, coz i tot they wanna hav some chat wit each other...jus terserempak oli i guess... then saw sherine, jasmine,dihhao,suktheng... alright, i stil think they nothing to do at home so jus come out yancha 2gether & terserempak us until.... joel started off wit "happy birthday song" & followed by others... then i realize they're celebrating my birthday, i like d cake duh,taste nice!!! jus cant bliv it, as in tis yr i tot nothing wil happen & mayb some birthday wishes frm frens coz normaly oli sis celebrating birthday 4me & nw im away frm home... is a great suprise lar...

Jus wanna thx joel,sukteng,jasmine,sherine,dihhao,ah lek,desmond, janice,wei qi for al d wishes & willingness to celebrate my birthday!! thx jasmine & sherine 4d planning... hey i heard sherine said "lets do something 4kahfai's birth" rite...Thx ya!... so i know wat to do 4her coming birthday d...

Nvr 4get to thx God for this blessed day... thx Him 4Him kahfai is hr in this world... thx Him 4giving me blessed friends & family...thx Him 4 all gifts He planted in me... Thx Him for asking my mom to gave birth 2me on 24 dec... which my mom always called me "Ye Shou Chai"-in cantonese...Thx Him 4wat i have nw... jus so blessed!!!

Happie Christmas to all ya!!

1st time

was in jusco al while... then somehw suktheng wanna get a pants as christmas gift for her fren.. ended up i b d role model for her 4d very 1st time in life... testing started frm shop to shop... changed pants to pants... thank God lastly found a suitable 1...

N i bought something unique which is good 4christmas present... bt is not d time to expose it out coz d person wil read tis blog... pls b patient... 

2day also my 1st time singing in d aquarium in GreenBox which is free... is quite nice singing thr altot is small bt jus feel comfortable inside... suppose 2occupy d aquarium oli 30mins, bt v sang 4 1hour plus....

Nw out 4pasar malam 4another meeting up...also 1st time join this gang

2day my fren asked me is thr a U-turn 4me... haha..(Im nt ready)

theses... not much 2say... headache

christmas production

Jus came bck frm SIB church & watched its Christmas Production which is The Shoes Box Tales... is not bad! i meant d story line itself illustrating our greatest gift for christmas is basaically d shoes box.. whether v wan open our heart 4it is totally depends on us... i learned from "Aaron-a child in d movie" about forgiveness.... then everything jus turned rite......

Then v went makan at William's at PJ... d food is realy in great portion bt also expensive altot is jus a mamak...& had some chating wit sukman,polly,joel...

Yday i went 4 another Christmas Production in KajangAOG... my church... is a drama titled " The Dream"... d story line is 90% same as The Christmas Carol movie... thr'r other performances also from children,youth & Czone(Uni Student).. i personally like d dance frm Czone... is jus so great!

2mr morn wil go PS2C(Philedelphia Church) for its Christmas production... then coming up wil b RLC(renewal luteran church), City Harvest Church, & Logos Church's christmas production... ah.. longing 4tat to come.. tis is my 1st time doing church hopping in life & i guess wil b d last too...

Jus had my haircut... nw hair becoming shorter & shorter! 

new look is out....

is a mysterious person cut 4me...

Finally exams over!!

It has been great 2know tat exam is over... but tis time i din feel any excitement at all...  & im nt d oli person felt d same too... 

4 tis sem's exam... i kept on loss focus in revision & delay til few hours b4 exam oli seriously start preparing... But realy Thank God tat i able to ans al quests!!

previously, v'l jus plan wat to do & whr to go... jus wil have some fun after exams... a trip... o an outing...

bt nt tis time... V'd changed? I dun think so... yet i'l stil hav an outing to 'Sungkai' on coming tues... in perak, is a hot spring spot & sambil visit frens house...

Thank God i hav frens like Joel & secondary school mates & good frens... they keep on ask me out..hahah... bankrupt lol!! But wil meet them up 2 find bck our good old times....

Plan 2do church hopping tis time! haha... 1st target is kajang aog, then SIB, then RLC, lastly comes to City Harvest... wanted 2watch their christmas production. Coz tis time mayb d 1st & also d last time i can hop with frens...

So nw jus relax & wait...happy holidays

really hungry nw... yet stil waiting 4d time 2come at 7.30pm.. coz eat wit joel..

2mr is my Industrial Relations exam, thank God is nt tat much to study...!!

But wat worries me is d coming paper... SPM(strategic planning management)... tis sub has super alot of things to memorize & too many areas to focus... & i haven started yet... frens said wanted to pengsan d coz of memorization... & i dun like to memorize..!

baptised... finally

2day is d great day(sat-6-12-08)... i was baptised twice... 1st was  water baptism... 2nd was baptised in d holy spirit.... 

4 water baptism... i can assure tat the OLD Retwer was Died.... N d New Retwer was Born... its really true... when d time i felt into d pool & gt pulled out... i was totaly being transformed into another man... as i said so.. i ned to clear whatever weaknesses i hav in me nw... bdw.. d water in d pool is kinda cold huh!!

Making Prayers Before Water Baptism

2nd was baptised in d holy spirit... 2day thr's a guest speaker... pastor Pam... a laddy(bout 50 yrs old).. seriously she was d 1st 50yr old laddy i found pretty....i jus cant see wrinkles on her face & she kept her face nice oh & i bliv tat she really very pretty during her young age... BUT tis is nt d main point.... d main thing was i sense d Holy Spirit was in d church.... I jus felt down when pastor Pam pray 4me... realy legs no strength no stand.. Amazing rite!! & i did repent to Him tat d gifts given to me were nt fully utilized yet... & im moving towards it to be utilized fully by Him.

Thx to all my friends who came & support me for water baptism.. appreciate it alot..& they sang '1 way Jesus' for me... but too bad was tat i hear nothing as d surrounding ppl sang another song quite loudly..anywaz.. thanx ya.

i jus love to seek God right nw... & my objective 4coming final sem is jus 2grow in Him... anything tat related to Him & can help me grow, i'l jus wont hesitate to do it... & is kind of cool to draw closer to Him... & i bliv everything work 2gether 4good for those who loves Him... Amen..

4 a child

 

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Christmas...

Last yr tis time v're having our fellowship time 2gether wit CF members..... tis coming christmas is so different... a brand new 1... planning to visit churches's performance 4  christmas wit joel....

like Kajang AOG(current church), Renewal Luteran Church(d place i accepted Christ)... SIB church..

 

Jus trying to expose to creativity of d outside world... hope i gain something frm it & use it 4Him

whole day i online only... din really study at all... i think is time to fast internet... so tat can concentrate on studies..

Confession...............

I admit myself has poor memory sometimes... lost my hp is 1 of d example happens alwix...

But somehw really thx God that help me find back each time..

N alot other things tat make ppl worried bout me o something i did wrong... to my family & friends...

i bliv tat if wrong means hav 2 take up d responsibilities...

Here i am aplologise to u al sincerely.. 

im no more a guy... im a Man Of God... He already changed me... 

God is really an amazing God... Amen!

Mmnnn

Jus view bck d multiply blog...

Found bck alot of memories thr(bascially a yr bck)... also i found bck my own self thr... realized wat i was in d past.....  compared wit nw.. ofcoz... gained mr knowledge.. mayb mr artistic

bt at same time... i lost something...& realize wat i did in past few months realy sounds stupid!!!...hehe... bt mistakes wont repeat anymore 1... bt realy thank God la He directs my way...

I Bliv He wants me 2view d blog bck so tat can recall d truth of mine... yes... i really did!!!

Nw i'm clear totally... about D way i should behave & treat 1 another wil b brand new... & mr importantly, i found d joy!!!

Like start a new frenship tat kind... everything is jus fresh... ofcoz its nt easy... bt nothing is impossible to Him...

Christian Fellowship

This video is nt special nor professional... It jus an idea to promote CF...thx

Edwin & Amy's wedding

                                   Edwin & Amy

hav been knowing tis couple 4 almost 2yrs.... haha... they finally gt married...Ediwn is goodlooking & Amy is pretty....... 

heard tat their path 4tis relatinship was not easy... super tough..

Thx God tat maintain their relationship til d end.... tis is mainly bcoz both of them Love God & put God in their relationship.... They're really 'serasi'(eng word 4get d) to each other...

Amy & Edwin dance during d wedding dinner, i hav to admit tat Amy really dance well, i meant her moves & expressions really jus so natural & beautiful.... Ofcoz must wit Edwin's help...

Haaha... jus happie  4them & congrats them.... they're God's choice to be wit one another...

may they treat each other good forevermore whether in good time o bad time.....

i can imagine nxt time is my turn 2invite them 2my wedding... hahah... jus joking.. bt i would definitely invite them.... coz they're good to me...

                   This is their Wedding Welcoming Card.....

Fri night

yday nite 9pm met up wit secondary schoolmates... al r doing quite well too... jus so happie 2hav a chat with them... 

mainly chat bout life, wats each 1 going thru... some biz thingy too as altot al of us r students... bt they r d planning far far ahead & doing some biz.. 

a fren of mine... partiban can retire soon in 5yrs time(tat time would b about 27yrs old)... coz his biz is expanding.... nw he's studyin in UNIMAS...

then partiban sent me bck after yamcha... he's taking motobike... hahah... v ride under d rain... 

super cold man!!!

then rech home bout 1.30am...

v plan tat v'l hav a outing 2port dickson mayb 4few days during sem break... 

Old time frens realy open my eyes wider!!!

Finally..

Finally??? 

Talking bout finally hav a chance 2meet up wit secondary close frens at Taman Desa...D schoold i study last time...

Has been bout 2yrs din c them... finally d time comes... each of us study at differ place,UTAR..HELP, TAYLOR..... they're vry smart persons.. 1of d reasons my eng improved tremendously is also Thx of them..

I guess thr'll b alot of laughters during d conversation....

as jus so much 2talk about....

Nw me at KL home... jus bck frm sglong...tats y can blogging as sglong's line gt problem after d lightning strike yday...

So jus waiting for 9pm to come...

A night out wit CF guys

Yday night after CF last combine meeting at logos church 4tis short sem..v al CF guys went play dota at E-century... thr r bout 8 of us.... 

hahha.... 1st time play dota wit CF mates oh... is so nice, v hav lots of happiness....everyone like seems to enjoy during d game time.... 

Thr's a map called fight of characters in DOTA.... is like u can choose character like Goku(dragon ball), then u can use d Hamehamehah power it has... & also other Bleach characters... all characters has its differ capabilities... is so fun when play tis game in a gang....

V played til 11.10pm...then d game ends

nxt time organise again lol....

Yday night about 6pm like tat actually my class has a gathering... makan & play games to gether.... i told them i would join them bout 8plus, but at d end din go.... haha.. sheena pandai lo, cabut 1st while v playin ice-breaking during combine meeting.

Well, coz i like 2mixed wit Cf mates mr,coz we're bro & sis in Christ.. really enjoy d moment b together.... 4my class...  too many girls... & they treated me very nice honestly... bt i'l stil join CF gang mr... Coz...... CF RocKxsss!!!

Movie in Jusco wit CF mates

Tues after dinner at chen fong mei, 7 of us(me, joel,pearlyn, steven, joseph, mandy, wendy)...

1st time went out movie 2gether... i guess (with tis gang)... 

we watch 'quarantine'... is a horror movie about ppl gt killed 1by 1 thru contagious disease...

when kena gigit... then will be infected & bcome like a monster... very scary...

joseph feel very dizzy as d screen keep on moving hr & thr... 

pearlyn also cant tahan liao.... felt like want to vomit...

joel gt scare even after d show...

somehw im ok wit it... mainly bcoz during sem break my fren showed me b4... bt is in french language... exactly same scene, story line & so on... jus tat differ actors & actresses...

wendy gt scared coz sit at d side... so i went sat at d end .... d funny thing is tat she said gt even mr frighthen as i made those extra sound effect 4d movie...ahha

mandy & pearlyn screaming in d cinema...so shock!!!

after movie finish... in d cinema... ppl say 'quickly get out frm here'....

wat a show... din watch show at jusco so long d... altot is horror movie, bt i stil hav fun time b wit them as realy hav alot laughters...

then went yamcha at MZ mamak after tat...

UTAR Christian Fellowship & my past (Part 1)

I totally bliv tat i joined CF is nt coincidence... is God the 1 ask me joined... thx Him..

CF is d place i experienced enjoyment, fun, happiness, joy, frenship, loveship, brother & sister's love... 

i grow alot since i 1st join CF frm d time i know nothing about God altot im so called a christian to d point tat loving God is al my desire nw...

It's jus so amazing!! Al glories r given to the risen King- Jesus.

I'm a shy person definitely.... i don even dare 2talk wit a girl when i was in standard 6.. even i tried to talk, but jus cant tahan 2laugh while asking her quest...

ofcoz secondary is better off, yet stil very shy when i face @ talk to d girl i like... normally d girl d 1 made the first step rather than me... coz i shy & duno wat to do...

& i totally terrible in my eng... when study Peralihan, whatever my eng teacher asks me, i can oli say 2words... "Yes @ No"... can understand bt can hardly communicate...

Here in CF... i joined eng CF coz i wan to learn eng... at 1st when i joined i was super shy... feel very uncomfortable to come for meeting at KA401 every 2.30pm on Wed... coz im always alone, feel left out, Sheena is my classmate & both of us r d oli Christian in class... she came 4 CF meeting, bt nt al the time... sometimes hav 2purposely ask her come... coz no fren ma..

then gt 2know joel, when i 1st saw him in KA401, his style is jus so similar wit my secondary close fren... it is like i found a fren tat can connect wit... tats hw our brotherhood relationship begins, then thrs a day he ajak me go 4dinner... when i went flora waiting 4him at guardhouse, he came... & he also ajak sherine & jasmine along... at 1st i tot both of them are sis.. coz really look alike... tat's d time v gt to know each other... Stil rmb v went Azmi makan 2gether..my 1st time.. nice food...

God change me alot thru Cf & d ppl i mixed with, be honest, i don appreciate my parents & sis in past... Is God d 1 changed me... He let me c hw important family is in my life... & ended up i realy love them lots... thru d things i experience like hw my dad admitted to ICU & hw i gt d support frm frens & church... realli superb touching... nvr tot it would happen in my life

Thank God keep on changing me to b a better person, & i rmb i told God tat " if my dad dint end up in d same situation again like wat happened previously in ICU,  im willing to do al things to help my dad" .. coz it is very painful in heart when d 1 u love ended up in hospital....Is Amazing tat God ans my prayer... He realli keep my dad's condition stabilized... oli thing is I ned to teman dad go hospital checkup twice a month... it is reali tiring coz ned wake up at 6sumtin morn & need wait few hours 4d queue in hospital everytime, then half day is gone... bt don mind at all & i jus wanna Thank Him...

Without God... Cf society... Cf mates... Chai Hong... Church mates... frens.... then i would nvr come to tis point of my life!! coz initially i plan to apply diploma in ktar... @ can said tat i don plan 2study after form5 coz dunwan giv family mr burden.. Its God's plan want me 2b here right nw right at tis moment...

To Be Continued.....

This is my niece... taken during her birthday tis yr... i was somewhr standing & try not to get myself into d photo...

Smile !!!

1, 2, 3 !!!... Hhhuuuu....

The girl is my cousin & her husband

Next time grow up don play real knife 4 wrong purpose lol!!! 

Happy superb belated birthday....

2mr will b a great day.... something is on in CG!!! jus wait & c la...heehehehee

L change d world

Jusnw nothing 2do... as oli left me & hui san(housemate) at home, so ar... since both also interested in d movie " L- change the world "... then jus watch 2gether...

D story line itself not bad lol, quite creative also i personaly think... is al bout life(die @ alive)... & hw 2catch d criminal... hav a good time of relaxing jusnw... long time din realy watch show d eversince last sem...

2mr timothy class.... belum look thru lagi as suk theng ask me jusnw... expecting sumting frm d msg 2mr... 2grow

Ysday Cellgroup

yday v watched a video on TRUST in Love by Jushua Harris, basically is God's Love, it stated that Trust His timing 4us... His timing is d best!! 

Nw is d time i learned lots of these 4future.... & i bliv in His timing... then quest pops out..

So hw do i know when is d best timing He set??

According to pastor Lindy(young & pretty youth pastor tat lead us in these sessions)

She said, v will nt b 100% sure bout tat is His Timing, But v'll experience tat everythng jus goes well, nothing is distract us frm Him, & sure tat d relationship wil grow in Him 2gether... then after comfirm everything & more importantly.. no doubt in mind & jus Trust Him... then it mayb d best timing...

but  if 1 of it din work out well, n yet v insist 2start, then will ended up no where... then hav 2restart again...

Defintely is nt easy 2find some1 u Love & with good characteristics, yet v ned to make sure it's d best timing He set!! & he is d right guy @ girl.. if nt, then no ned explain la... bt hw v able 2 know tat??? IS SIMple= know Him well(hav good relationship with HIM) Jus like my fren joel & jasmine did... 

is amazing tat discovered Love @ relationship is nt a jus a like thingy..v need work on it in our entire life without rest!!!..

Ofcoz, what i share is jus a very little portion of Love... so let me discover more 1st... Godbless

sing

i duno y i hav so much things write in blog 1???

tat day went "Chirstian City Church concert in City Harvest Church"....

City Harvest Pastor said : " if u say u duno hw so sing songs 4God... then u ned to train urself up nw, as later in heaven d oli thing v do is praise & worship."

i must be a better person frm nw on & change by Him, to glorify Him... 

duno wat

nowdays jus couldnt sleep much... tats y so early wake d

bt eye nt tired... good thing

jus wanaa jus go around kai kai o walk walk outside sglong!!! to open up my eyes

saying b4 christmas  wil meet up wit frens 4 gathering.... din c each other after graduated from form 5... wondering hws their life is

Joel's birth is coming soon... yeah!!! stil remember last yr tis time he msg to 500ppl in list to invite us 4his penang celebration... he gt his legs hair shaved off  ler.... left the word " 21 "

tis time kena him again lol.....

frm young til secondary... i wish i could hav a chance to hav my birthday celebrated together among frens... bt somehw, everytime when comes to my turn of birthday is actually holiday...

tats y i rarely celebrate my birthday wit fren... wish 2 hav something special, bt js can wish... even in UTAR as well, my birthday is also holiday....most ppl balik d...

tis yr would b my last birthday in UTAR.... so fast d time past.... as i say, wish 2hav something special, bt i guess it would b jus like d tis song " i can only imagine".. bt is ok... dah biasa sudah..

So jus hope tat Joel enjoy his celebration with us la.

 

For a fren

Lord... i jus wana seek u... pls help my fren siew kuan Lord... 

she is in great troubles, Lord i pray tat U b wit her...

Tat she can be healed completely,

Whatever evil spirit tat stays within her body,

wil b totally cleansed by U

As hw U healed my dad Lord...

Pray Lord tat U create a miracle in Siew Kuan's life Lord

Give Elijah & Siew Kuan O Lord... to able to have a chance to draw closer to U

Help O Lord my bro & sis in Christ.... U d oli can b trusted..

I uphold them into Ur hand... in Jesus name, Amen!!

relationship

This morn while in hospital teman dad 4body checkup... i read d book "i kissed dating goodbye"...i jus learned alot frm thr... 

this caught my heart " joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment",  means i realized tat i muz do wats best for others by nvr asking for intimacy if im nt able to meet d commitment level.

Nw i decided no more 'dating' in rest of life... 

D reasons y i stop dating is not tat i donwan get married, or donwan enjoy romance, is because i realized i ned wait on romance until i can match my pursuit of intimacy with my pursuit of commitment... (means don focus on short term desires)

in other word... equation : when "commitment level= intimacy level, thus = can hav romance" then oli a relationship can be long lasting...

i jus wan d best 4both...

nw stil hav alot mr things about truth love haven been discovered yet... nw oli reach chap 3 of "i kissed dating goodbye..." hehehe... mr to go!!! 

so nw i really give a goodbye kissed to dating... c ya..

 

i'LL CUT MY HAIR SOON..... tis is d desire frm my gang to c me in short hair... bcoz i also ned short hair when interview!!!!

I love U Lord.... whenever i go, i saw people praising U, d same God... Im so touched by tat

Jus wanna make a prayer......... Lord bcoz i bliv in power of prayer, bcoz prayer U pull me out frm darkness....

Lord, I pray O Lord tat help me to be a Firm...Strong.... & a Decisive person!!! my God, never let me to hav a chance to regret in life....

Lord, help me to grow in U, tats my desire Lord.. i really want Lord!!! Let nothing can stop me frm Growing in U... Lord... never let me 2b a selfish, small gas person Lord!!!

Lord.. I pray Lord that as I set priority in life... Pray tat u sustain me frm tat!!

Frm nw on, i put God as 1st... then comes 2family, 3rd chai hong(she is like my mom)... then me & others..

Even if im tired til cant open my eyes, I stil wil cont praying... 

Lord, as i told U d priority i set, pray tat Lord U hold me strong in Ur arms... As CF easter is coming, i know people will seek my help especially in deco,..."chai said : if u'r an empowering leader & nt powerful leader, then u'll b a very effective leader" Means empower people for task 2let them learn, nt depend on me coz im good in tat area!!

Lord... as u mention Love in Bible, Lord... i pray O Lord tat U prepare me to be a lovable person like hw U sent Ur son 2die 4us... Let me learn & apply it into Mylife... Ur will is my will Lord!!!

Lord, i ready to b changed by U!!! I wan to let people c tat KahFai is transformed & b a better person in Christ...I'l make Jesus famous to the people around me!!!

U'r d 1 saved me frm death... if nt i cant even hav my eyes opened nw... thank you God!!

In everything i pray in Jesus name, Amen!!

dance in Northingham Uni

2day learned dance... wit nigerian... on d way thr... thr'r 4of us in d car... me, suk theng, lin xiang, & wendy.... i was tired & then jus slept in car...tot stil long way 2go, mana tau when i almost fall asleep that time.... wendy shouted " Apek... sudah sampai lo!!! " ... i straight away terkejut & woke.... 

then when i practise til tired then i sat aside n close my eyes resting......... & suddenly i heard a " chik chak sound" terkejut me again.... is wendy kena me again.. she took my pic... aiyo... ni budak suka kacau la!!

northingham has good facilities & nice campus... v played pool while d dance session begins... d dancing room really great la, is exactly d same as d dance room as v saw in movies... 

bout d dance... is quite amazing tat i saw them dance... as d moves are good, chai hong told me tat they nt good in dance somemr...seems like is not d truth...i susah 2catch up also, thr's a move tat requires us 2 bend our upper body behind, like falling to d back... is d hardest among all, i practise tat move til my legs no energy 2even stand... al of them keep on coming out wit new ideas... is jus so great!!

N 2mr sure my leg gao gao pain d when walk....

Sat

i really enjoy sat as v hav JAMMING Session, really thx Jasmine 4tat! D 1 come out with ideas... at 1st i jus tot nothing special, but d more i get into it, d more  felt.. wow!! tis is wat i want....!! Learning piano is really fantastic 2me... cant imagine i would able 2hav a chance 2learn it without spending a single cent... V planning 2 lead worship on 1 of d sat service b4 graduate...... 

d other thing i enjoy d most is having makan session at kajang after practise... really enjoyin n even d bus waiting process.... bdw, 2day really gao gao la in d bus... 1st bus came, very pack inside, so i masuk with ah lek(my huzmate) 1st... then d rest wil follow suktheng, mana tau when both of us got down frm d bus... saw sherine n al coming down frm d bus behind at same time, then i looked into d 2nd bus.... """sikit orang saja inside"""...lol... kena tipu d... me n ah lek pack inside d 1st bus like sardin fish oli...

suddenly nw feel kepala pening, guess is d time 2sleep, coz yday sleept oli 2hours then cant sleep d...

piano lesson

2days piano lession not simple also, learned fingering, chords..... rest cant remember d... a super long lesson.... bt hav fun of it... janice d 1 taught me... n wei qi d 1 bside kacau... hahha, bt wei qi can catch up things very fast... she listened then can play a song 2gether with janice...Guess she learned b4 1... yet she say duno hw 2play! janice said she long time din play, bt c d way she play, macam sangat pro.. 

 their laughters spread throughout d room.. i also cant control them... well this is my very 1st time learn piano in life(real piano)... alot of excitment yet fingers stretch alot... wanted to kill 3 birds with 1 stone one, but ler... stil ned mr time to learn... as chords n fingering n reading notes learned at same time... bt need mr time 2digest... hehehee.. my target can be acheived soon nt far frm nw... thx janice 4willingness 2 teach.

So

Its a great suprise to all my fren n her fren... tat v broke up... well... i praise U, i remember i watched facing d giant show in broga planing camp... it taught me "we win.. we praise U, we lose... we praise U".... applied into my life!! always have a heart of thanksgiving... discussion finally comes to a decision 2day,is officially single to us..... Amen!!! i respct Ur & her decision.... 

meanwhile i would learn about relationship , growth in Him tremendously as my plan since last sem b4 graduate... wow...i can c tat i really grow alot.. hahah.. is talking bout spiritual growth.... nw i hav 1 mr sis in life ler...i know she cares bout me after tis incident.... hehehe... don worry ya, God is always thr 4us when we seek Him, honestly... He is healing me, so u nw hav 1mr bro also... jusnw chai asked me pay her back 5roses...1 month 1 rose..haha.. borrow frm her long ago 2learn hw 2make it...d 5months.... paiseh la.... 

so ar...i'b responsible for wat i done...cont to be man of God..!!! 

future partner

nw i started to pray for d coming relationship... hee.. i duno who she'll b.. im know God'll choose d best 4me as He had promised in Jeremiah 29:11... bt jus wanna

- pray tat Lord.. tis wil b a 3ways relationships, U & me & her... tat my main objective 4tis relationship is to grow together in U... whenever v hav joy, v'll  celebrate 2gether wit u... whenever v hav sadness,  v'll jus come to U & Lord i know tat u'll help us hold on tight on U & keep us lovable to 1 another.

- pray tat Lord help me to b a 100% good boyfriend and even spouse to her, i'l keep all my heart jus 4her... 

-I'l keep d purity of 1 another... Lord i pray tat U give us strength & wisdom to fulfill tis request.. as nw i know wat truth love is al about thx be 2 God... Because of Love... i'l protect & keep 1 another's purity til d very end..

-Lord i pray tat i'll b the lover U wan me to be for her... not b the lover she wants me to be for her... same way goes to her... 

there r some criteria 4d gf i'm looking 4...(no order in sequence)

1st: like to smile

2nd: hav good heart

3rd: love God 1st, then comes to family... then me& frens

4th: a faithful 1

5th: nt a person tat loves money

6th: share each others' burden

& others....

To me, physical beauty is nt tat important as it'll fade away a day... cause i bliv when i love her, then she'll b d prettiest person to me...

As Lord with Ur help... i bliv tat d coming relationship wil b a long-lasting 1 as u're d sustainer 4us... i praise U Jesus.

appreciation

would like 2 introduce a laddy, she is described as rainbow, i guess whoever close with her o UTAR students would know tat... she is chai hong... her favourite word "SEeee..RioUsssss".. as i like to imitate her way of pronouncing tis word... very funny...she look abit old, bt yet she is young at heart!! 2day jus had a 2hour bible studies session with her... bt v din touch d notes at all, v jus talked throughout entire session as she teaching me n showing me hw to deal with probs.... 

She encouraged me tremendously... Whenever i faced prob, she is d 1 always help me out... without her, i definetely would nt b able to grow spiritually so much n to be a mature person like nw...n even unable to discover tat God has planted so much gifts within me... in my heart i said, if she is in any troubles, i'll b d 2nd person b thr 4her, as 1st must b God...

When i was young, i had an aunty tat look after me til i was in secondary.. bt im vry sad tat i witnessed her died in suffering... bcoz of health illness... i jus unable to do anything 4her... i was crying in heart n thinking, if she has a chance to know Jesus, then she would b saved...she cares 4 me n my sis even mr than my mom does.... i was vry regret...tat she hav no chance to know Christ.. She is d 1st person i had deep love with... she is like my 2nd mom..d kindness n love  she demonstated in my life would never be forgotton.. i nw can imagine her everlasting smile in my mind.. so comfortable...i love u 程要妹姑姐

And nw, i found my 3rd mom... Chai Hong.... she is jus so good nt oli to me, as well as other students she knows.... today she taught me to set priority in life... so i listened to her, she told me tat nw V(mainly utarians) r her 1st priority.. I bliv tat the care n love v experienced frm her will be kept deep inside our hearts forever... i respect n care 4her... when my family faced prob, i always seek her advice... i admit tat 'me-kahfai' is nt strong spiritually, she is d 1 always give me encouragements n advice.. she helped me draw myself closer to God.. as i found bck wat i lost thru God & her help.... She helped me to be a better person in life.. im nw hav alot mr confidence also ned to thank her

Thx God for bringing Chai Hong into our midst...        "SEeee..RioUsssss"-frm chai

Publish Post

My Life

My Life.... in my life, i had toooootoooooo many ups & downs d,even my laptop's name called "M-Life"too, bt it helped me gain extra experiences n lessons some ppl may nt able to have it, like stealing frm family, relatives, neighbours, frens, shops... gangsterism, smoking, fighting, almost die(few times) n many mr... tis mainly happened in childhood n secondary schoold time......

Altot i may looked small in ppl eyes, as im phisically small... yes... i mind it alot last time b4 i know Christ.... bt 4 nw... i proud 2b myself.... 'kahfai in God's given identity'... d smaller im, tat shows d bigger of our God.... i wan to be used almightly by Him... tats y nw i'm learning guitar, piano!!! and even dance together.. it may b tiring ofcoz... bt i jus feel good to learn... bcoz its all my passion too... so i feel its worth 2sacrifice

Altot i always talk crabs... is nt tat i want 2crab, is my nature n gift tat i want make ppl happy thru tis way... thx God tat tis gift brought alot of laughters into many ppl's life n even into mylife.. is ok some ppl may nt feel comfortable wit it, because i cant please all ppl in d world.... 

Thus, i gt famous with d name "lame king', or another word is 'very Fei'... i gt all kinds of funny name ppl created 4me... if they feel nice to call it then jus let it b... n bcoz of tis gift, im able to break d wall in ppl's heart.....Thx God tat then it opens up their heart n sometimes they like to share their personal probs n things wit me... mainly girls... sometimes im sorry tat i may not b able to help them, bt im happy to b jus a listener... i guess mainly i looked like a girl at 1st place, as ppl commented ... also i grew up wit 2 sis.. v always share things wit each other, that's y i quite easily get along wit female... 

As for d road infront... i duno hw it would b....... please show me... OUR LORD, JESUS!!

challenge

2day... our thesis group changed supervisor.... as previous supervisor went 2teach in kampar utar, n he's a very good supervisor as he showed us d way to have our article published in magazine... he is a christian.. n he did make a promise tat he is willing to come bck n guide us even he teaches far far away... yet at d end also he left...n we done our chap 2 n waitin 4him to come n check.. v send him email... no response, then v sms n call him... also no reply....

Now changed 2a new malay supervisor tat doesnt know anyting bout us... she has no much experience n she is new in UTAR... she even duno hw 2 insert a pendrive into a comp n asked 4our help. d questions raised up in discussion r frm us... nt frm her, like v guiding her hw 2do... tis is jus 1of d prob.... as our thesis is focusing on secondary teachers, n v ned to deliver d questionnaires to the secondary teachers, but jus found out tat tis wed onwards all secondary school having holiday til nxt yr.......... what can v do???

 i cant complain nor yield... thx god that a fren of mine contacted a teacher n he's willing 2 help us ans d questinnaires.... bt somehw thr is no point... as 1st, our hypotheses are nt checked by supervisor, when 1 hypotheses has prob, d entire questionnaire bcomes rubbish... 2nd, thr is meaningless 2get oli response frm 1 school... the demand is tat at least 4 or mr school's teachers ans the questionnaires.... 

2mr noon thrs an easter committee meeting, bt i cant attend as i ned go 2shah alam, d seconary school 2 distribute questionaire at 3pm as 2mr is d oli chance to distribute as after 2mr... all school are having holidays... at same time v will have a meeting with supervisor at 2pm, bt d thing is she always late... hw can v reach shah alam by 3pm as d meeting last at least 30mns somemr she likes to talk alot.... even v get 2reach d school also no point, 1 school's response is nt enough at all.... can i shout all stress out?

thx

thx for d care frm my huzmate...whenever they had programs,like 2day... they went 2 The Mines kai kai... n they nvr left me bhind... ask me go along, bt i vry busy.. & tired... so cant join them... even nw during dinner time, they also ajak me out 2gether, said ' without u is nt beautiful d'  in cantonese... yet, i no time even 2eat... jus woke up as i had headache jusnw...later i guess d pain wil come bck as will d theses discussion wil end probably at 4am... nw need to prepare 4presentation,ned 2 find alot of evidence to support my points... 'nvr give up' is always my axiom

finally

... nw at 1.12am of mon, me at kl home n finally done my presentation slide, altot it jus a  slide 4tues presentation, but tis time is differ, as tis time is among d hardest presentations i ever going 2face... very challenging, adi prepare my heart 2b questioned by tutor( she jus bck frm hongkong n was a senior executive in corporate world).. she has high demand n expectation on us, im worry coz d points i got are mostly frm my own knowledge, if she asks me to prove it.. i unable to do it 4her.... i need God's strength n wisdom, as i bliv tat even i know nothing bout certain area, but He who gave me wisdom able to bring me out frm tough situation.. its a truth, i experienced it alot..Later need wake at 6.30am as teman my dad 2hospital for body checkup, then ned rush back 2sglong(UTAR) 2attend class,combine slide n practise grp presentation, then frm 8.30pm til 11pm i have a cell group 2attend.. after tat at 11.30pm i have a thesis discussion n probably doing it til nxt morn... N tues morn 7am, thrs a prayer meeting i need to attend... after tat class starts at 9.30 am til 12.30pm,presentation is in btw tat time, wil try my very best tis time...  at night has dance practise also...is a very busy n tight schedule n tiring day... i seek U oh Father n praise U.

wat i'd learned

In any relationship (between spouses, between parents and children, between siblings, between relatives, between friends, between bosses and employees, between one another, etc) it is human to blame the other person for causing the misunderstanding or hurt. We have learnt from very young to point the fault away from us. We are so incredibly trained to notice what’s wrong in any given relationship. And this only makes the matter worse.

Thus, if we still want to maintain a talking and growing relationship, we have to find some guidelines to help us cure our tendencies to blame.
        We know that what Mother Teresa has said is true for any relationship:
        “We know that if we really want to love we must learn how to forgive. (“A Gift for God”, 42)

Thus, in any conflicting relationship, our anger and resentment must ultimately give way to grief and sadness. This means we are saying, “I lost,” because that is the truth. We may have lost a battle for him to change, or to make him see things our way, or to get him to understand just how wrong he was. We have to stop fighting battles that are not worth winning, or not possible to win. That is what God does every day. He lets go and feels sad about how we choose to conduct our lives. When God forgives, He chooses what we human beings would term “lost.” How so? Because soon after we would repeat the same sins and He still forgives us when we say, “I am sorry.” But God does not consider it a lost. Why? Because He loves us so much that He wants our relationship with Him to continue growing in love.

And when God forgives He does not keep count. He does not keep a record of our sins. He chooses not to remember our sins. He lets us start afresh. God says, “I will forgive their sins and will no longer remember their wrongs.” (Hebrews 8:12 TEV) So He forgives us endlessly.

Avoid these blaming in a dating relationship, or it'll just spoil your relationship ...
        “Why do you always. . .”
        “Why don’t you ever ...”
        “I can’t believe you’ve done it again.”
        “I don’t deserve this kind of treatment.”
        “This is your fault.”
        “Who do you think you are?”
        “You’re so. . .”
        “After all I’ve done for you. . .”

Very useful as  i learned alot from it...thx God

a complete kahfai

Here im, i was lost once upon a time, nw is the time to b ho m i in God's given identity... not longing so much compare to d past, can say expectation bcome lesser n lesser...good rite! nw learning my favourite instrument tat i wanted to learn eversince i was young... tat's keyboard@piano.. nxt week my cf fren is willing to teach me... so excited!! at same time catching up with drums n guitar..little by little..hope i am able to catch d lesson.. to b a freestyle musician, al d while im hoping 2b 1.. as well as an artistic n creative guy to discover mr n mr ideas ...n i bliv tat d time wil come... let me shine 4 U.. n just for U.

new life

by nw, i chose God as my ans in relationship rather than her... its my final n definite decision..coz i bliv if she is for me, God wil redeem it for me... watever it'll be, jus let it b........... admire tis song nw.... " let it be, let it be, let it be, let it be...."

feelings

is depending on feelings a good o bad thing ? 4my own self, i affected lots by wat i felt at tat moment & made decision straight... alwix alwix made wrong decision... it has been a week since i broke up...I'm out of words... i will never think that it could happen in jus 2days...during tat week i still planning wat 2do for our 1st coming anniversary...jus couldnt accept it.. wat a sad case.. v ended d relationship in d wrong way..as our mind were stucked n jus decide according to our feelings, without asking god anything..He is sad bout us.. after losing her,i oli realized tat she is d 1 i want 2walk wit til d end of d earth(seems like some guys like me doesn't know how to appreciate things and only filled with regrets after losing it).. somehw i wanted to tel her tis, but jus afraid tat i may scare her away... jus always pretend im ok..actualy nt... im nt sure hw she feel bout me, she is tat kind of person can recover very fast n wat i understand her is tat after she make up her mind, she wouldnt change her decision, hope i misunderstand her tis... As i surrender totally to God, i pray to Him tat if she is d 1 meant 4me, then let us b , but if she is not meant 4me, then jus help me let go of it....  i trust in Him, he always choose d best way 4me..

today

din really start a blog 4so long n nw i think i should record down wat i experienced so tat i able 2recall back my beauty memory